2010… i don’t know if i’ve had a year that was full of more reflection. this year, i’m thankful for everything that has come to light.
my wish for everyone, including myself, for 2011 is that we continue to speak and learn more truths and step further and further away from those that bring nothing but false hopes and fake promises.
for a large majority of my life, i’ve been blinded by emotion. i honestly believed i had experienced true friendships, true love, and genuine feelings of happiness. this year, from the prompts of inexplicable occurrences by people whom i believed to “know” i realized that i need to reflect more. i need to see past actions. i need to see through people. it’s the only way to get closer to the truth.
people say actions speak louder than words- but i beg to differ. and i know from experience. people talk a lot of shady shit, but they certainly do a lot of shady shit too. and i remember the days when i convinced myself that i didn’t have to hear ”i love you.” that i could just feel ”i love you.” but now i know that i need to hear it. now i know that it feels twice as good to feel it and hear it.
2010 has helped me see through people that i should have been able to see through all along. in the past, like i said before, i didn’t reflect enough. i made excuses for people. i gave them the benefit of the doubt. 2010 has taught me the power of the individual, the weakness of the “clique.” there may be safety in numbers, but nothing can replace individual, genuine, uninfluenced thought. yes, it’s been hard to see through people- as most of the time, they just hide behind the rest of their pack. they have no individual thought. more people are becoming sheep and taking less ownership of their own actions.
2010 has drawn me closer and closer to people who i can truly appreciate as individuals. people whom i don’t associate with anyone else. people whom i can hang out with one-on-one. people who bring new ideas to light. their own ideas- not something that everyone else is thinking. not “let’s go to Osha/Cha Cha Cha/Cheesecake Factory for my birthday.” not “i just got a new pair of jordans and i’m going to post a picture of them on facebook.” not “minna/som/castro tonight cuz i’m bored/boring.”
so as 2010 comes to a close and as we welcome 2011, cheers to enlightenment. cheers to all that is true. cheers to the people that don’t front, that don’t flake. cheers to getting to the bottom of all those lies. cheers to being your own person.
time for me to put the ize in realize. you know you love it. thanks, reggie. happy 2011.
=) loves ya!